So I received a phone call from a previous almost boyfriend whom I cannot stop thinking about since I met him. I hate how when you are involved with someone they have the power to turn your whole world upside down within a matter of seconds. I cannot stand the fact that I am away from him but he will never know that. I don’t think I’ll ever tell him. It’s one of those things where you know how you feel and want to be a part of their life but you know it will never work, no matter how hard you try….. Especially regarding the fact that he lives on the other side of the country. I’ve had this happen too many times in my life and have always been moving around constantly. That is why my ex and I broke up. Well now that I am in one place it seems that no one interests me, yet at least. Isn’t it funny how things work out? I want to stay friends with him but I just can’t if we are going to talk til all hours of the night and lead me into thinking that he actually gives a shit about me and my life. For once I just want things to go my way in having a relationship with someone. I wanna feel like they do on the movies. But here I sit typing about how sad I am because I miss some guy who gives me the least bit of attention when it’s convenient for him. So much for feeling like they do in the movies.
